I definately have an ideal guy
I think I do
But, why is it that I keep wanting you
- Recently I have been trying not to be consumed in a guy. In actuality I've come to the conclusion that I don't know if I am ready to be in a relationship realisticly or not. I've never really dated? Is that a good thing or a bad thing?
Is staying focused on oneself good? or only something you do sometimes? What is the mature decision. And how picky are we really allowed to be. Some would say... VERY... you know whos best for you... and others would say... give a few a chance, you never know what you could get out of the experience. :) True... but a little too risky for me, I sometimes think to myself.
My friends arent dating... so I suppose I'm not the only one feeling as such.
I don't want to marry you.
I just want you to be there on our time.
not yours.
not mine.
but, as with life. it happens.
i will continue to wonder... & on December 9, 2008 (this year) i will hit 20 years of age.... 20 years of my life. whose heart will I have stolen ;). and who will have mine... or will I still stand at the girl with one past love and many friends... sitting around like wtf. lol
INDEPENDENT... do you know what that means... ALOT. but it comes with a very pretty price.
HoLLa! ;)
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I dont think anything that you are feeling is wrong... your becoming a woman and you want to be loved and feel loved.. that's normal...
men at that age though are so afraid of what it means to love that its hard to really date someone seriously.. so yes you always have to put your wants and needs first... you are a place in your life where its okay to be a little bit selfish
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