maybe im MISSING something.

I am no longer confused as to what i need to do
I am no longer confused as to what i want to do

I feel like jumping off of a cliff :-( , as in the highest
elevation known to a mountainous range
but, not in order to create a crimescene... but, to just
SIMPLY start over and detatch my mind from all
referential realms and illusions I once knew.

I don't know what I was thinking for the past, almost
twenty years of my life. I must concur that I was indulged
in a "wo"man-made, self driven hurrincan... category four, that
clearly I have been complacent with.

What I thought I knew...
Humans are the most complex creatures on this earth
Humans fall in love
Humans are the only creatures able to create beneficial ideas for their futures

An illusion.
which is wrong.

We are biologically animals such as any creature on this earth
So, does that make love and the thought of love, nothing more than
a "political" plan. I mean, think about it... it creates structure and limits
class confusion. Are we really made for these "relationships" that we continue
to put ourselves in.

I'm beginning to believe that love can't really be, what we've thought it to be...
if it seems to become and yet end so quickly.
It can't.

Past and failed relationships were pointless and a wast of my time. Yes, I learned alot, but when I think about them... I feel like I didn't neccessarily need them. I wanted them. And in the end after they have run their course... I have become no more excited about new and future relationships.

Is monogamy really biologically possible... today?
or has it ever been?
will we ever know? probably not.

It seems to me that very few people are faithful anymore and it seems to me that alot of people are becoming okay with the thought of that, when entering relationships. Compatibility seems irrelevant and in alot of cases, many relationships are based off of simple fascination and sexual attraction. Which is a shame, based off of the "illusions". I understand exitentialism now. Never thought I would. Check it out, if you don't.

And... for the SLIM remaining amount of those who dwell on love over lust and respect the completing of one another when in this LoVe spell idea... they/we may be out of date...luck... and our minds. lol.

But in the meantime...

ROCK ON ;-)

yours truly,
ME