Life in the MAKING.

wow, it's true... the Lord does work in mysterious ways.
I am honored to be one of his children, and will continue to allow him to order my steps in his name. :)

i have truly grown so much in just one year. this year is going ten times better than last year in ways i thought unimaginable. but, of course there are things that i had last year, that i really do miss this year. school is great. ever since my major change and career plan, i feel better about my life. i know that is pretty harsh, but i had felt like i was pretending to be phenomenal. i always wanted to be in the spotlight... what for? the answer is casper the friendly ghost ;). of course, the things that i participated in werent for me... they were for the greater good of other people, but what is the point of pressing others to follow their dreams if might were lost. my academic world was average and unknowingly laxed. i tried hard, but at the last minute... i asked questions, but too late in the semester... i joined study groups and brought less to the table than i recieved and i smiled in peoples faces when i was truly upset about it all inside.

i still havent seen the party side of a&t... and i believe that has faded. a&t is a university of hope... that teaches our students that anything is possible that you put your mind to. and even though i dont always scream out to the world how much i adore this campus... i do. but until i am fully enthralled in all that i came here to do... i am not carrying out AGGIE PRIDE as one should. so i stand still. very specific people made me into the collegiate person i am today and they know exactly who they are... i will thank them officially one day, but i look up to them.

beginning this year... i put all of the "extra" things to the side for the first time in my life. there are people who will probably vouch for me and say... i really havent been around this year. i must disagree. i've been around... but only in all the right places. vantreese is my main focus this time around. i told an old friend once, i was afraid to try my very hardest and give all i had in school in the past, because i would be disapointed if that were my best and i had failed. what is a person to do then? but, this time, i realized that won't work for a phenomenal woman. i must push forward... and that is was ive intended to do. we are shooting for all A's this semester... and those that follow. not because of anything else but my personal pleasure. i can only imagine, how this will feel and how many others i will be able to tell that "anything really is possible". really...

loving life ;)
yours truly,
ME

ps: moms bday party pics: http://acameralex.com/contact.html